Today I say sorry to myself for acting like a total bitch, for not caring enough about myself to correctly care about others.
Mommy, I know in my head whats right and whats wrong.I was not able to do it. I’m sorry if I hurt or made you feel less than the center of my heart. Your my everything(with carter). I have to live with the fact that I changed our relationship. I’m sorry!! I love you, and I hope you one day will get it.
2 the woman that I hurt with out knowing them. I’m sorry. Your right I didn’t give a fuck about you, because I didn’t give a fuck about myself. The very thing that seems most selfish is really the exact opposite. I settled everyday, I took less than I deserved everyday. I fell in love with men who can never properly love me. I allowed them to use me just so I can feel something. After being numb for so long anything is better than that (so u think). Lucky for me neither of you had to know. But I wanna apologize anyway. My karma is coming lol trust me.
So many times we point fingers about the “other woman” “bitch onthe side” but most of the time she is so fucked up we need to pray for her… I am still a work in progress so please pray for me. *ALIX*